I have a boyfriend who constantly blocks me and tells me he wants to break up with me. I am very tired because he always says that he doesn’t see a future with me. But we have been together for 4.5 years.
I want to have a future with him. We even applied for BTO already. However he always tells me that I am easily influenced by my friends and social media. I feel guilty going out with my friends, and feel even more guilty when I use social media or play games.
He always calls me toxic. He had hit me before, making me bleed several times by punching me in the lip and the solar plexus.
He calls me manipulative. I always try and go out of my way to communicate to him and meet him even though he blocks me everywhere. But he will act cold to me and pretend like I don’t exist.
What should I do? I feel very stressed out but he blocked me and there is no way for me to contact him. I have been very supportive but to him I am just not trustworthy. I feel so tired in the relationship because he likes to play mind games like tell me I am toxic, or say that it is all because of social media and my friends thats why I am behaving the way I am.
I want to break up with him but I am afraid as I still love him and care for him. But it’s so tiring to be in a relationship where I dont feel like my actions are being reciprocated. I just want to communicate with him but he always refuses. I am tired.
He always blames me when he gets angry or fails at anything in life. For example he used to be an elite student with very high CAP, but when his grades dipped, he said it was because I was influencing him to become a worse person, but in actuality, I am a first class honours and have always kept improving throughout our 4.5 years. I feel like he doesn’t even have his own life together.
I keep trying to piece it for him but I don’t want to baby his life anymore.