For privacy reasons we’ll call her “Charlotte.” Just for a bit of backstory, Charlotte and I first became friends two years ago.
She was really nice and we would literally face time 3 times a day. I always had sort of a crush on her and I tried to suppress that emotion because I knew that she probably didn’t feel the same way towards me.
Everything was going really well up until the end of the year. We got into a huge argument because her and her friends were making fun of me at school and one of my friends had overheard their conversation.
Whenever I asked Charlotte about if she really said those things about me she would continually deny it and get really defensive.
Eventually, we stayed as friends as I was scared that I would lose her because if I did end up losing her then who else would I talk to?
We had our fair share of ups and downs for the next while and it started going even more downhill on valentines day.
I thought it would be a good idea to tell her that I liked her so later that night when we started face timing, I ended up telling her. (I know that was a dumb idea please don’t judge me).
The worst part about the whole thing is that she gave me the “I’m not ready for a relationship yet” even though she had already been in a relationship with someone else before. I was quite upset after but I got over it eventually and things carried on as normal.
Fast forward to the start of this year and I noticed that Charlotte started showing a lot of the signs of liking me.
I decided to tell her again that I liked her and once again, she gave me the same response as before. (Me telling her this was months after the first time don’t worry).
This next part of the story is the reason why I wanted to post this. So soon after I told her for the second time, she starts out of nowhere starts talking about her other guy friends.
(Note: she’s never done this before and it was pretty obvious she started doing this to make me jealous)
I hated when she did this so after a while, I told her to stop but guess what? She didn’t stop. It got to the point where I ghosted her for a week because it was really starting to screw me up.
Eventually I got really fed up with it and I decided to talk to her about it. Long story short, we got into a big fight over text and we stopped being friends.
I started to realize that I relied so heavily on her to bring me joy that I couldn’t find any when she wasn’t around. My life became an absolute mess. After a few weeks and going to two different therapists, I’m starting to do better now. She hasn’t reached out to me in almost a week and honestly, I think that says a lot.
For the longest time in my life I always thought of her as “the one” but I never truly realized that there are so many other people out there for me who are bound to treat me with way more respect than she ever did. I still think about her a lot because I miss talking to her every night but then I realize that no matter how many times I fantasize over her, nothing is going to ever make her want to come back to me.