Basically about 9 months ago I met a girl off a dating app, who completely hid the fact that 18 months prior suffered a stroke leaving her paralysed in her legs and most of her arm and in a wheelchair.
Already when we matched she wasn’t my type but her comment on my profile was witty so I matched with her anyway.
I was quite shocked when I saw the motorised wheelchair, but decided to give her a chance and continued with the date.
The date went well however I noticed that she struggled a bit with talking for long stretches because of her stroke and she said that it was like trying to think after doing a 18 hour shift but all the time.
by the second date, she invited herself up to my home where we made out and took things further. I was the first guy she’d been with since the accident since most guys would ghost her once they saw the wheelchair, so she hadn’t been with any guys in over 2 years. She said she hadn’t really given “b” jobs before, but when I say this girl was a master, it was the truth. She was mindblowing.
Her throat game was unbelievable.. I swear she didn’t stop for air for at least 45 seconds at some point, and she completely loved every second of it.
I remember it was so good she had me scratching my forehead, over my eyes, down to my cheeks and when I “came”, I think my soul left my body, to which she stopped, stuck out her tongue, swallowed it and told me “you’re not done yet”, and then continued until I came yet again super quick like 3 mins later.
We kept seeing each other a couple of more times, unfortunately, she wanted a relationship. and I really contemplated having one with her but something felt wrong being with her, with her brain difficulties.
I felt like if it was only physical disabilities, it’s not really a deal breaker, but I felt like that there was such a large mental gap it felt predatory, I know in my heart and actions I was nothing but respectful and treated her like a genuine human being putting aside her disabilities.
But the mental difference wasn’t something I could get over personally. It felt like i was doing the wrong thing with an imbalanced power dynamic between us. even though I did nothing wrong technically, it felt wrong to me, So I ended it and stopped seeing her.
Was I wrong to break up with her? Or was I wrong to even go out with her in the first place?