I was in a relationship with my girlfriend for over a year, and it was one of the most intense relationships I had ever been in. We had a strong connection and were always honest with each other. We had a mutual understanding of respect, and I treated her like she was the most important person in my life.
Possessive
But last month, things started to change. Out of nowhere, she started to become more possessive and jealous of me, and she would constantly ask me if I was seeing someone else.
She even started to check my phone when I wasn’t around and would ask me questions about who I was talking to and who I was texting.
At first, I tried to explain to her that I wasn’t seeing anyone else and that I was faithful to her. But she didn’t believe me and kept checking my phone. Finally, after weeks of her checking my phone, I had enough and I told her that if she ever checked my phone again, I would cheat on her on purpose.
I know what I said was wrong, and I regret it. But I was so frustrated and angry at her possessive behavior that I lashed out and said something that I didn’t mean. I know that cheating on purpose would have been a terrible thing to do, and I would never actually do it.
But my girlfriend didn’t believe me and she broke up with me the next day.
We haven’t spoken since then, and I feel terrible about the whole situation. I miss her so much and wish I had handled things differently.
I now realize that trust is something that needs to be earned, not assumed.
If I had been more understanding and patient with her, then maybe she wouldn’t have been so possessive and jealous. I also should have been more transparent with her about my activities and communication with other people.
If I could do it all over again, I would never threaten to cheat on her.
I know that it is too late to apologize, but I want her to know that I am truly sorry.