My husband ruined our marriage
My(f30) husband(m35) and I have been married for going on ten years this year.
Before we got married he couldn’t keep his hands off of me, everything was great. But, right when we got married he suddenly wanted nothing to do with me. He didn’t want to sleep with me and we hardly spent any time together anymore.
It got to the point where I would have to beg and beg and beg for any sort of physical attention, we wouldn’t have F for 3 or more months. If I didn’t bring it up, it wouldn’t happen. My self esteem hit below rock bottom.
Some how we had three kids in that time.
Now I’m very very open minded, and I like to think that I’m an open minded person.
I found out that my husband is VERY into cross dressing. Now, this doesn’t turn me on at all, but doing my best I tried to get into it while he wore heels and panties, but he wouldn’t do anything that I enjoy when we do F, and I still would have to go months without it.
Turns out, not only is he cross dressing, he’d been cheating on me the majority of our marriage. Going out dressed like a woman, lying about where he was going, talking to other men and women, meeting up with them and hooking up.
I was very open and willing to do my best with becoming even more open with the sissy and cross dressing, but the fact that he cheated on me and lied about everything? I’m beyond pissed.
I have lost ALL respect for this man. He wants to stay together since we have children, but I want out. He keeps gaslighting me to stay so my kids have both of us under one roof.
My husband and I haven’t f-ed in almost two years and he is still going out and meeting up with other people, I’m starting to see other people also but I feel guilty since I’m a very monogamous and loyal person.
If you made it this far, thank you for reading and letting me vent.