My husband said he is disgusted to kiss me becsuse yesterday I gave him a bj with finale in my mouth for the 1st time.
10 years marriage, on a rocky road for the past few months and intimacy was basically non existent, up to 5 times per month, as we argued much.
Yesterday I asked him to take a shower, I dressed up nicely and when he showed up I asked if he’s up for something new.
He hesitantly said yes, and I said we can’t have intercourse (due to health reasons) but can I have him in my mouth till the end.
He said yes and I could see he enjoyed it. During the last couple of seconds he hesitated again but I was so focused on what I’m doing I said ‘please let me’ and he did.
Then I just got off by myself on his eyes cuz I just saw he was so not into this that I couldn’t bring myself to ask him to do it for me even though it crossed my mind for a sec.
I was also embarrassed of my state as I have a frequent infection I am battling with and he could see it. He knew I had it but I didn’t want it to be so obvious.
I already spoke to him numerous times it’s a fantasy of mine, I mean the bj finale where he finishes in my mouth. Now he said what he said. He always liked my mouth and he was getting very turned on when I gagged on his D.
Wondering if it will pass. Is it maybe the fact that he wasn’t prepared…and I pushed too much? He also said he misses me so much after all those fights that ‘that’ kind of closeness wasn’t doing it for him…
Thanks for all honest opinions.