I’m from a poor family, with my dad as the sole breadwinner. He’s been a lorry driver all his life and brings home very little money. Not to mention he smokes, drinks, and gambles. He puts very little on the table. My mother is a housewife, have the same bad habits as my father, and a very venomous mouth. My younger sister aspires to be like my mother and doesn’t give a shit about trying to improve her situation. Basically, no one is on my side.
To make ends meet, I work part time whenever I could during school holidays, do well in school to get MOE scholarships and try to support myself as much as possible. The FAS definitely helped but it’s hard in a family like this. I tried really hard during NS just to get a higher pay to support the family. I bought everything I needed on my own for as long as I can remember. I’m on a scholarship now but it’s hard to maintain the CAP. Still have to teach tuition to get some extra income.
But my sister is someone who doesn’t even try. She’s rebellious, doesn’t study, and rude. Picks up all the bad habits from my parents too. She graduated from the worst poly course with the minimal pass grade but doesn’t find work. My mother told her to apply to a private university and I would be the one who supports her education. I already paid for her outstanding poly fees, transport fares, food, etc. Hell, she doesn’t even apply for FAS herself! I had to do it for her to lessen my burden. Why continue an education when you don’t want to? And I have to pay for her private school fees just because I’m graduating with a degree? Just because I’m her brother? Just because I’m family?
Enough of this nonsense. Why do I have to work so hard for someone else? If I could do it, why can’t my sister even try? People, don’t have children if you can’t afford to raise them. At this point, it’s either I kill myself, or I just leave.
The worst is, my parents expects my girlfriend and I to take care of the family. Why should she even be in the picture? Wtf? I don’t even spend on her for the past 4 years and she doesn’t mind. I want to give her things but she doesn’t accept them! Always saying, next time, next time, your family more important. No, they’re not! She’s been working for 3 years since she graduated and I’m surprised she hasn’t broken up with me. She even volunteered to pay for the BTO in the future first. Such a useless boyfriend.
I’ve been thinking a lot. I want to leave and give my all to people who care. People who are my family. Enough with the blood is thicker than water bullshit. That’s not even the correct saying. Blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb. This family should not be my responsibility right from the start. If only I had better parents. Or at least a better sibling would have made my life easier.
You know, I don’t need a “family” like this. Whatever I’ve done for them was more than enough for the years they “raised” me. People tell me I’m wrong and I’ll regret this, I’ll have karma etc, but I don’t think so. A new form of freedom and happiness I’m looking at is worth going to hell for.
Source: Nuswhisper