I don’t know that I have ever experienced an epiphany or anything until now.
Here goes, I guess.
I’ve (42M) been best friends with J(43M) since we were kids. We’ve been inseparable since we met. I love this guy so much.
I’m an only child so I see him as my brother. I’d take a bullet for him, and he says he feels the same way about me. Don’t be weird. We’re just friends. There’s nothing wrong with two grown men being best friends and expressing their emotions!
Anyway, here’s some context. I’ve always been more of ladies man. I’m much more outgoing. Never been super interested in anything serious. No one hurt me, I just never cared too much. I’m not a scumbag or anything, I just want to have fun.
J is the opposite in everyway. He’s always been really shy and introverted. He’s great. Funny, stable, probably the most thoughtful guy, and (no matter what he thinks) not bad looking.
He’s just so insecure. He’s my boy! I’ve always hyped him up, but you know, it’s who he is. Plus, he had one gf that really broke his heart. He hadn’t been the same since.
A year or so ago, he met E(32). He fell for this girl hard. It was easy to see why, she’s drop dead gorgeous and really cool. He was too scared to make a move for a long time.
Long story short, they’re living together. I’m really happy for him. She’s perfect for him – fun, outgoing. She brings out the good stuff in him.
So, this is the part you’ve been waiting for. I was supposed to come over to his place to hang. I was running errands but finished earlier.
I went over to his place about 45 minutes early. I knocked and he didn’t answer, but I knew he was home. I had a spare key so I just went in.
I saw them immediately. They were going at it on the kitchen counter top. I feel totally guilty for noticing (and I would be respectful to his face) but she had an incredible body!! I was shocked. Like, deer in the headlights. I was going to leave but I couldn’t stop watching.
I didn’t mean to be a creep! I swear! It was just like something out of a rom-com. They were so passionate. I still can’t get over the way she was looking at him. They were so into each other.
Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had good partners in bed. I have dated beautiful women. (Not to brag.) But I don’t think I’ve ever experienced something like that.
It kind of made my heart hurt. I don’t know how else to say it. It made me realize that I want someone to love me that way. I’ve never felt lonely before. I’ve never once thought I would be the kind of guy that wanted a wife. But now, I kind of do. I want what they have.