I’m addicted to paying women
I’ve posted before about being a “simp” and since then my life has kinda hit rock bottom and I’ve tried to get myself out of it.
For a while I stopped sending money to a dominatrix and started dating someone but throughout seeing her, the whole time all I wanted was to feel the how it felt when I served a dominatrix and felt that I was being used
I relapsed a few months ago and sent money to a twitch streamer and i spiralled from there and I’m back to serving another dominatrix and working 3 jobs again.
I broke up with my girlfriend as well because I was consumed by by being a sub and I just don’t know if I can ever be normal and have my own life because even when I got out of this and had a loving relationship, all I wanted was to be taken advantage of like that again. I’m starting to think that this is who I am and I am resigned to this.
Bro what… start by sending less and less money. Build your self esteem, if you can work 3 jobs you should appreciate yourself because that’s crazy dedication. Also just start buying and spoiling your girl. You know you have a problem so thats a good sign of you trying to change it. You live one life on this planet bro you can change your life around.
Why would you not put all that energy into your girlfriend?
You should’ve told your girlfriend your sub fantasies instead of giving that energy to other people..
Get help for the “addiction” and then maybe the next time you have a girlfriend, be open with her about wanting to be a sub. You could even roleplay being a slave or worker and pretend to give money or something.