I’m day drinking and upset.
I guess I’m just feeling bitter, and I try my best to not be, but I can’t help it right now because she’s got another achievement under her belt while I’m left here in the dust, just watching from the sidelines, and I’m so full of resentment.
I posted about her right before my life imploded. We had a pretty great life together. Two great kids who got along. A nice place. It was nice.
But I wasn’t ‘fulfilling her needs’, but she never properly communicated them to me. I never knew she was reaching the end of her rope with the relationship.
The worst part is, I still have to see her. I can’t avoid it because my kid loves her, and I’m the only father the youngest has ever known. She lets me take my little girl on the weekends, even though she doesn’t have to, which is great, really. I do appreciate it.
But every time I hear about how great she’s doing or how much she’s changed, I want to rip out my hair and scream. It’s like she’s someone completely different.
Her health is improving, which is fantastic, and she can work more than she used to, which is also fantastic.
But she went and got a job in corporate America, even though she’s not like that. She gets paid way more than me, and flaunts it by telling me about how she’s meeting with lawyers to set up trust accounts for the girls, or how she has a huge fund going for my daughter because she’s going to university in two years, or how she’s going to finance a car, or save up for a house. She has a ton of money in a life insurance account and made sure to tell me how much was in it under the guise of telling me how the kids would be taken care of if she dies.
She never cared about money, but now she’s all about it. We’re not a trust fund family and never will be, no matter how hard she tries to pretend.
She even listens to different music now, and chews gum?? She never liked gum? She’s says it “helps her study”.
Now, recently, she’s stopped coming by to cook for me and the kids. She’s obsessed with studying for an exam to become some hotshot stock broker because she thinks she can do stocks after making some money off of the market last year. She convinced a company to hire her, even though she has no experience with stuff like that.
Jesus Christ, she was a stay at home mom with an antique Etsy business for years, and she thinks she’s going to become some Wolf of Wall Street character?
She used to come over once a week to meal prep, but she’s taking that away from me, too. She says she’s studying for her field’s equivalent to the bar exam, which is crazy. She’s never even been to school for this.
And she acts like she’s such a hotshot. She wouldn’t give me her manger’s contact information because of “security reasons” and she says that she has to follow certain government rules these days because of her job, which is BS. She doesn’t work for the government, she works in a call centre. She’s practically a telemarketer from what I’ve heard about her job.
I’m just so angry about everything she’s done in the last few years. She’s left me behind and I hate it.
I have to see her every weekend when she comes over to make food for the kids, which she just wraps up and throws into the freezer, by the way, and she’s constantly throwing her good news in my face.
She used to bring Emma by on Saturdays and spend the day here cooking and spending time with both kids. She did it for YEARS until she got her fancy new job, so she’s fading that out, too.