To be honest, I am really, really, tired of life.
Work has consumed a large part of my life and I cannot seem to switch off from and about work, even after working hours.
I start thinking about work the moment I wake up and I feel the dread having to deal with a duty that puts me on 24/7 (seemingly). It was originally a manager’s duty whereas I am definitely not capable of that position at the moment and the duty had definitely put a huge strain between our working relationships.
I don’t usually speak about my feelings about friends and family members in my life, but feel that the loss of a friend and my grandparents had greatly affected me on top of the shit I have to deal with at work. Grief eats you up and I am definitely at a better place than I was last year, but the recent death of my Grandma made me wonder if it is worth it giving so much of me to work and caring about what colleagues think of me.
Sometimes I wish I would just leave this world in my sleep. Till then I will finally no longer have to respond to shit and deal with shit at ungodly hours that affects sleep quality which literally ruins your entire work day.
Sidetrack. I am sincerely grateful to the few that have been morally supporting me and putting smiles to my face. But I am really.. tired. One day when I am gone, please just remember that I have ever been kind to you.
Here are what netizens think:
- Working is only a part of life, don’t let it take over your life. Quit and take a long break from work and start looking after your mental health.
- Its time for you to take a step back and relax. Work has put u under a huge stress. U need a job that dont makes u think of work when at home or outside while u are trying to enjoying life. Dont let work be the source of ur tired towards life. Life is not supposed to be like that. Slow down, take annual leave or something and relax urself at the same time think about what kind of life u want to have and are willing to reset and make changes to ur life. Gd luck
- You are overwhelmed. It happens to anyone. Take a step back & learn to say NO. If not possible to reject request & doing it is too much to bear, then it is time to move on. I did that & i am a happier person now