I am not proud of who I used to be or the decisions I have made in the past, but I feel I owe it to the world to tell my story.
I am a typical guy from Singapore and I had the pleasure of meeting a kind, sweet, and beautiful Taiwanese xmm in my travels to Taiwan some time before the pandemic.
She was still schooling, studying in Uni when I met her.
We hit if off and sort of became a ‘couple’
We hit it off right away and I was smitten by her, you know the way these Taiwanese xmm speaks and acts around you, to me it is something that you will never find in Singapore.
We spent a few nights together in Taiwan, and she even came over to Singapore to find me a few months after I left Taiwan and we had a great time together.
I introduced her to some of my friends and even brought her back home to see my family.
One day, I asked her to marry me and she said yes. We were planning a future together and I was the happiest man alive. Little did I know, I was about to make a grave mistake and destroy her life.
Started to cheat on her repeatedly and she found out and went back to Taiwan
I started out by playing her out and cheating on her with other women. I was so caught up in my own desires that I didn’t think of the consequences of my actions. I was selfish and I didn’t care how she felt.
As a result, she started to become distant and depressed. She eventually left me and went back to Taiwan.
I forgot about her after she left until one of my friends who was visiting Taiwan some time after she went back looked for her.
She turned to working as a bar hostess for companionship and money
When the conversation changed to how I was doing, she shared with my friend that when she arrived, she was a broken woman.
She had lost all hope and had no idea what to do with her life. She had already quit school when she decided to come to Singapore to find me, and it was something that I did not know.
She was alone and had no friends or family to turn to.
Out of desperation, she turned to the only thing that could provide her with a sense of companionship and love: she became a bar hostess.
She has been entertaining men at bars, nightclubs, and other places of leisure. While doing this, she is paid by the bar owners and sometimes even showered with tips and gifts from patrons of these bars.
Often, times this can lead to more intimate encounters. I can only imagine what she went through during this time in her life.
I feel immense guilt and regret for what I have done to her. I destroyed her life and her dreams. I wish I could take it all back, but it’s too late.
All I can do now is apologise in my heart and hope that she will find happiness again.