Found out my gf is an escort
I (M26) have been dating my gf (F22) for a year and started being suspicious when I saw another phone at her place which she never brings to mine.
She said that it is a work phone (she owns a clothing brand). My gut was telling me something is up and I saw her putting the password in her “work” phone during the day and unlocked it at night when she was asleep.
To say I was shocked to find out what I did would be an understatement, there were at least 15 different men that she was actively talking to and sleeping with and even went overseas with one of them (told me she’s going on her own to unwind, I never doubted this).
Now I’ve been really confused because it’s not like she’s broke and starving, she makes a decent amount through her actual business.
I confronted her and she started crying and owned up to it and also told me that she has kissed these men as well (which bothered me more than her sleeping with them because it was protected) and would do it because it’s good & quick money, I respect the hustle but I just feel so blindsided?
I asked her if she would have told me this if I hadn’t found out because i was planning to propose soon also, and she said “I honestly never wanted a single soul to find out and I would have never told you and I feel exposed that this thing came out totally against my will and I’m upset that you went through my phone without my permission”.
I don’t regret the fact that I went through her phone. She has quit for a month and is down and insecure and hating on herself but said she might start again and will tell me beforehand so I have a choice to decide if I still want to be in this relationship.
I still love her and do not think of her any different and if she decides to start again, I would most likely still be with her because I love her that much. But to say that the trust is still the same would be a lie. How to move forward with this? Am I being played?