8 Reasons why I want to stay single
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1. I want a Mancave (pretty self explanatory) and wanting someone that likes the same things as I do (games and anime) and attractive or at least decently looking at the same time (sounds f*** up I know, looks like I am expecting so much for someone that is average looking). I like games and anime, which i will less likely have high chance to find a partner with the same hobby, even if I did, most of also have high beauty expectations of their partner.
2. I have NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder), will hurt the people around me or have disagreement and conflict, especially people I stay with in the future (based on past experiences staying in rental flats with landlord)
3. I don’t see myself as a man, more rather like a guy that refuses to grow up. I don’t want to succumb to the society expectation and pressure. I have alot of questions about life and I am not bending my will against anything unless my questions get answered and I get a reason to everything that happens. I don’t want to accept the things for what they are. I know many people just accept life the way as it is and just succumb to life but that’s not what I want to live my life and this is the conviction that I have that may not align with many people out there that just want to live their lives normally and follow the crowd and go with the flow.
4. Need to impress females with dressing and styles, which means
a. I need to spent more buying more expensive clothes rather than uniqlo
b. I need to wear clothes that I don’t like just to impress people
c. I cannot wear the clothes that I like, that includes clothes that are comfy, looks cool and not suits and ties that are tight, suffocating, boring and plain.
5. I am not a sweet or smooth talker or someone that will say mushy things to impress girls, or what gen z called “Rizz”, or someone that will soften words or cushion words to make everything sound okay to flatter girls. I also have low EQ so I probably won’t be able to get out of tricky situations using wits nor outsmart high eq people.
6. I am not good looking or attractive, and I will be in competition with thousands and thousands of guys out there that are willing to put in the effort to dress up and impress people. Guys nowadays are going far to the extent of spending alot of money on membership going to the gym, protein shakes, eating chicken breast or plain food, wearing makeup, painting nails and taking care of their skin with tons of skincare products. I am not willing to go to that extend just so I can compete with those guys out there.
7. High cost of living; I am not rich and I do not want to climb the corporate ladder as I want to avoid all politics and drama at all cost. I also want to be happy go lucky person and doing what I love. I don’t want to do the things I don’t like. As a result, I will not be successful and earning more income than the rest of the guys out there that are willing to sacrifice. It doesn’t benefit me in anyway to get a partner other than buying a house.
8. *DEAL BREAKER* I have very bad experience with women, almost like PTSD from my encounter with my landlord (my friend’s mum ) and also my friend herself. Basically I rented a room with them and there are alot of horror stories of her being calculative and trying to restrict my freedom and putting fear onto me, few times invading my privacy by going into my room and claiming that I stole her stuff when it’s just very small things like clothes peg and rags. She also extorted me to pay her the full price of the WiFi upgrade even though I only used it for few months and I paid for it but she demanded me to pay the remaining even when I moved out, putting the blame onto me saying that it’s because of me that they upgraded the WiFi, even though they are also benefiting from the WiFi. She also uses society standards and expectation to put pressure on me and wanting to conform me into the typical person that fits into social norm.She brings me out for meals on the pretense of wanting to use it show that kindness to me and then using it to control me and gaslight me into being a obedient person to them, says that they helped me alot and I am being ungrateful. They expect alot in return for the kindness they shown me when i didn’t even ask it in the first place. She also constantly harass me during working hours by spam WhatsApp or email me and demanding I reply her email immediately, if not she will threaten to chase me out. She also did not give me any tenancy agreement and then even when she did she says she doesn’t want to give me because she wants to protect herself. Overall she is a very overbearing and calculative person and uses all kinds of methods and tricks to gaslight me in making me the most evil person that trying to ruin their lives when I am just trying to live my own life in peace without disturbance. She gave me so much emotional and mental damage to the point where I need to seek a counsellor for therapy.
I also rmb during my primary sch, a female classmate also extorts me money because I accidentally broke her pencil or pencil case I forgotten but something alone the line, she say if I don’t give her money she will inform the teacher and her parents, at that time my mum wasn’t around alr and there is no one I could seek help or advice from, I also don’t know what to do and for fear she will report on me, I kept taking money from my grandma to pay her just so she won’t report me. At that time I didn’t even know I was being extorted.
Basically, it’s just one vicious cycle after another just to catch up with another vicious cycle IMO. E.g needing to climb corporate ladder to have more earning power so that I can dress better, be more attractive and impress others. It’s just one thing that leads to the other.
In summary, I’m a f*** up average person that is boring and nerdy af that likes attractive women but doesn’t want to give a slightest damn effort to dress up and impress others but yet at the same time wanting to get everything. Which is absolutely impossible and I know it myself. So I just gonna stay single for the rest of my life and just live my life my own in peace while letting the rest of the world fighting among themselves.
OR
If I can really find a nerdy girl that likes anime and games and yet attractive at the same time, that also happens to like me at the same time(virtually nearly impossible, chances of it is 0.06% gacha rate or God blesses)