I will love you either way.
Earlier this year, I broke up with my girlfriend of 7 years. 7 years of memories, through laughter and tears, through NS and Covid, we still weren’t able to make it till the end because of my mistake. A moment of folly, cost me someone who truly loved me for who I am. She cried, she begged me to stay, took her patience for granted, until she finally decide to leave, until then I woke up, and she’s no longer coming back. My pride and my ego, cost my relationship. Someone who was ready to settle down with me, someone who always had my back, someone who’s been through everything with me. I thought I was ready to move on without her because I was the one who chose to end things anyways. Guilt, is something I thought I could live with, until I realize, it consumes you whole. It makes you think about the thing’s that could have ended in a better way. I’ve been living in guilt since then, even when everyone else is telling me to move on, I couldn’t. I tried to forget her, forget us. I tried. Today, she’s getting married. The day where we spoke about, where tons of promises were made, too bad the one standing at the end waiting for her couldn’t be me anymore. I wish her true happiness with whoever she decides to be with, and may their love for each other conquers it all. Forget about us, and be happy. That’s all that matters.
I know you won’t be able to see this, however, your happiness rise above mine. Thank you for being a part of my youth, witnessing my growth. I am sorry for everything I’ve put you through, even when you cried and begged, I left. I am in no position to request for anything, I only wish that you’ll finally achieve happiness. No more tears. I will always love you. Take care A, goodnight world.