I was always the one in my group of friends who bragged about knowing all of the rich and successful people.
I was very proud that I knew all these people and thought that I could get something out of it
I never failed to bring up that I had connections to the popular and elite, and I was proud of the fact that I seemed to be the only one in my group that had those kinds of contacts.
I was always the one at the center of attention, and I was always the one that everyone looked to for advice.
But, in reality, none of the rich and successful people knew me. I had talked to them, sure, but it was never more than a passing hello
I had never been invited to any of their events, and I had never been given any kind of preferential treatment because of my connections.
I had spent so much time trying to get close to them, only to be completely ignored.
I was embarrassed. I had been so proud of my connections, and now I felt like a fool for thinking that I had made any real inroads with any of them.
I felt like I had been lying to my friends, and I was ashamed of myself for trying to be something that I wasn’t.
The worst part was that I had also been lying to myself. I had convinced myself that I was successful and that I had made it.
I had put so much effort into trying to get close to these people, only to realize that I had been fooling myself all along.
It was a hard pill to swallow, and I felt like a fool for ever believing that I had any real connections with the rich and successful people.