My heart was pounding as I left the bar. I had gone there for a night out with my friends, and it had ended with me feeling scared, violated, and helpless.
It had started out as a normal night. We were drinking, talked, and having a good time. Then, two men approached us and started hitting on us. At first, it was just annoying, but then it started to get more aggressive and they started to get physically close to us.
One of the men then said something that sent chills down my spine.
He said, “Only first-time pain, after that it’s love”
implying doing it from behind. I was so scared, I didn’t know what to do. I was frozen in fear and all I could do was try to back away and hope they would leave us alone.
Thankfully, one of my friends had the courage to stand up to them. She told them to leave us alone and that we weren’t interested. The men eventually left, but not before one of them made a lewd comment about me.
I have always been a timid small size guy and I have been afraid to say no and face confrontations.
I felt violated, embarrassed, and scared. I couldn’t believe this had happened. I had gone out for a fun night and it had ended with me feeling so scared and helpless. I was so shaken up that I couldn’t even talk to my friends about what had happened.
I wanted to forget about the incident and move on, but I couldn’t. I kept replaying it in my head and I would get so angry and scared every time I thought about it. I was so scared that I wouldn’t go out with my friends for weeks. I was scared that something like that could happen to me again.
Eventually, I started to go out again, but I was always on edge. I was scared that something like that could happen to me again. I was scared that I wouldn’t be able to defend myself and that I would be helpless.