Hey y’all, I’ll try to keep this short, but mostly looking for some feedback/WWYD. My husband of ten years loves being pegged.
He brought it up a few years ago and I, wanting to be open minded as well as give him space to explore whatever fantasies he had, decided to try it out so he could experience it.
He really wanted me to use a strap-on, which I did for awhile. I could not STAND it.
No offense meant to anyone, just not My thing. It was painful, uncomfortable, a strong turn off, made me feel like I was going to puke.
After time of him complaining I didn’t use it enough on him, I told him gently that I wasn’t comfortable with it. He was really mad for awhile but got over it.
Now, the problem I have is that he’s so obsessed with this stuff. No matter how cleaned out he is, it smells like crap. There’s usually stuff in there and it gets on me or on the towels/bedsheets.
He constantly asks me if it was “hot watching his hole get stretched so wide by the toy” and I never know what to say because At the moment doing it to pleasure him I can get over it and am willing, but when he wants to talk about it I feel like puking and it makes me cringe.
He constantly wants to talk about it and the only thing that I think about when he does is the smell and the stuff getting on me all the time.
I’ve told him he needs to be cleaned out more and he does try but nothing seems to remove everything. Idk, I just am so not into it.
Thing is, he derives an insane amount of pleasure from it and I don’t want to take that away from him. I do think his obsession with it is borderline unhealthy not gonna lie.
But outside that, I want to meet his needs. I just don’t know what to do with how disgusting I find the whole process.
There is absolutely NOTHING I find hot about a hole where poop comes out. someone help me lol. What do I do? How do I overcome feeling so grossed out by this?