Why are low paying jobs so damn stressful and demanding? I can’t take it anymore. This is the third job this year I might have to quit.
I took this job because the job market sucks and I have bills to pay. The job seemed chill, not demanding because I’ve been dealing with so much stress from not being able to find a job that I took what I could find.
But wow, this job is starting to give me really bad headaches, stress, and anxiety.
Here’s the thing, my department consisting of me, my direct manager, and the coo. I was hired as an Assistant and literally in the job description they told me you did not need experience because they want to train and build the person. Cool.
Two months, and I realize there people don’t know what they want.
They’ll give me a task/project, (mind you I’m working on new software I’ve never used they aren’t hard but it does take a bit to learn) and once I’m done, I’ll get feedback on exactly how to redo, their way.
These people keep telling me that they want me to use my brain, think critically, do stuff in my own style but as soon as I do that I am critiqued heavily and given guidelines that aren’t written anywhere.
Also, they want me to think like them but here’s the gag, they both have ADHD, (not that that’s a bad thing) BUT I think it’s unfair of them to expect me to think like that when that is not how my brain works. I’ve literally sat down in meetings every week that are hours long of them just ranting about any and everything.
Another issue is when I interviewed, they offered me to interview again for a different role in events because of my background, I declined. It was the same pay rate yet a higher position.
Why am I now in charge of a yearly dinner? My coo decided they wanted to hand this off to me when this is not even a part of my job description. And working with them has been so stressful.
This person literally told me they are going to grill me with questions about the restaurant that they chose so I have to compile a basically a presentation.
instead of just doing my job I now have to anticipate this persons every question. And they changes their mind every meeting we have, talks forever, and gives me new tasks to do that they changes their mind about later on. ALSO coo has their partner go and call the restaurant to ask the same questions. Like, wtf??
I asked my manager for advice without saying explicitly you guys are stressing me out. This is their response:
“do what coo wants but don’t do what coo wants”
“We want you to use your brain and do things your own way in your own style” this was said to me after manager took a project I worked one and re-did it in their own style and then proceed to tell me how I should do it that way.
“I’m not always going to give you the answers” after I’ve asked for help on how to create something coo asked for in our two hour meeting where they go on tangents.
”I know cooo talks a lot and they change their minds a lot but, I’ve learned to read coo mind, I’m not saying you have to but you have to kinda have to anticipate.”
I’m just over it. I make only $2k a month.
Also to add I always get told I do well/good in my projects they just want it exactly how they envision it in their heads. I did not know I was a hired psychic .