I was never one to shy away from a good beer, but lately I’ve been drinking like a ‘ah gua’.
I’m sure my friends are starting to notice, and it’s embarrassing. You see, I’ve been told my whole life that drinking beer is a manly thing to do. I was told to drink beer like a man, to prove my masculinity.
So, I’ve been trying to live up to that standard, but I’m failing.
I started out drinking like I was supposed to: a few beers here and there and some shots on special occasions. I was good at holding my liquor and could easily hold my own in a game of beer pong. But lately, I’ve been finding myself reaching for a bottle of beer before my friends even have a chance to suggest it. I’m drinking more than I used to and it’s starting to become a problem.
It started to become a problem when I realized I was drinking for the wrong reasons. I was no longer drinking to have fun or to be social; I was drinking to prove something to myself. I was drinking to prove that I was manly and to live up to the standards that had been set for me. I was drinking to prove that I was a “real man”.
The problem is, I’m not a real man. I’m not a manly man. I’m a ah gua. I can’t handle my liquor like a man and I can’t drink like a man.
I’m just not cut out for it. As much as I want to be, I’m not. I’m not the type of man who can handle his beer. I’m the type of man who drinks beer like a puss.
I’ve come to terms with the fact that I’m not a manly man and that’s ok. I don’t need to drink beer to prove my manliness. I can still be a man without drinking beer. I’m still a man even if I don’t drink like one.
I still enjoy a good beer from time to time, but I no longer need to drink beer to prove my manliness. I drink beer because I enjoy it, not because I need to prove something to myself or anyone else. I’m still a man, even if I don’t drink like one.