I (28M) cheated on my ex(30F) of 5 years with my best friends sister (21F). I’m still in love with my ex.
To be honest I don’t remember much of that night because I was drunk, all I remember is that I woke up with my best friend’s sister, Abc, in my bed.
I don’t even remember her coming to the party. I was living a nightmare (of my own making) because I love my gf (now ex) and I didn’t know what to do.
I told Abc to be quiet and let me think of what to do. I felt shit and the guilt was killing me but I was too coward to confess anyway 3 weeks later, Abc told me that she was pregnant.
I knew that I had to step up now. I told my ex that I wanted to break up with her and I started dating Abc officially.
We got engaged on Valentine’s Day because Abc told me that it was important to her to be married before having the baby.
I know that too because I know my friends family are very conservative. We had to at least be engaged before breaking up the news to them that we were expecting.
Abc had a miscarriage last week and it has been tough. I have never been so miserable in my life. I feel bad for losing my child and very guilty because I felt relief.
I still love my ex and I cant believe how all my life changed because of one drunk mistake. I was supposed to propose to my ex this Valentine’s Day and I even had the ring that I saved for 3 years for.
Even Abc was angry that she didn’t get the ring because she knew I was saving for this ring.
I want to call my ex and confess to everything to her now. I know I can’t have her back but I want her to at least know that I still love her but that I needed to do the right thing and atone for my mistake.
I really want to do that but my sister who knows everything told me to just let her go. any advice?