My face is ugly af, im 162cm and im balding at 23. I started binge drinking 2years ago. I cant get a stable job and I can’t socialize purely due to how low self-esteem i have and how anxious i am around people due to a traumatic past.
I live with my parents and they’re tired of me. My sisters think im going to do something foolish to myself and seem worried but dont really do anythibg about it.
I have friends but im too anxious to go out and do anything with them. The only thing that gives me hope rn is that im going to try escorts in the nxt month.
The best part is this.
I started playing soccer at 12 and became a workaholic. Completely obsessed with training. I very quickly rose through the ranks and became one of the best players in my team.
I also had pretty bad acne at this point. Tried all the skincare products out there didnt work. But i was grinding and wanted to go pro.
Then at 18 i realized that no matter how good im at soccer im still a loser in the eyes of others because of how ugly and short i am.
The realisation made me quit football. I went through the most intense year of my life and lost my virginity with 1 other girl. Then i started to go bald.
So now im a bald ugly short dude. I was already insecure anxious low self-esteem. But now i was done. I had trouble leaving my house. I turned to alcohol to cope.
I was working a lousy job on and off. And one morning i wake up and 3years have gone by with me having done nothing.