I remember the day it happened like it was yesterday. I had been dating my girlfriend for about six months and things were going great.
We had a lot of fun together and I felt like I was falling in love with her.
One day, out of nowhere, I blurted out something that I immediately regretted when we were arguing.
I told her that I was with her for her ‘papayas’ and not for her nonsense. I don’t know why I said it, it was like the words just came out of my mouth before I could stop them.
I was expecting her to be angry and to yell at me. But instead, she just looked at me with a sad expression on her face. She asked me if I really meant it, and I couldn’t lie to her.
I told her that I was sorry and that I didn’t mean it, but it was too late. She knew that I meant it and it was like she just deflated right in front of me.
I instantly felt horrible for what I had said. I had meant to say something nice, something that would make her feel good. Instead, I had said something so hurtful and terrible that I could barely look her in the eyes.
My girlfriend told me that she was going to go home and think about what I had said. I wanted to apologize again, but she was already walking away.
I knew that I had hurt her and I couldn’t believe that I had been so stupid.
The next day, I was still feeling terrible about what I said. I decided to call her and apologize again, but she didn’t answer the phone.
I left her a message and told her that I was sorry and that I didn’t mean what I said. I told her that I was with her because I care about her.
However, that was it.
She eventually found someone that treasured her for her personality and loved her not only for her ‘papayas’.
She has just been proposed to and will get married in a few months time while I’m still single wishing that I could turn back time and take back my words.