I can still remember the look on her face when I uttered the words, “Marriage is only a status symbol, it’s really not necessary to do it.”
She looked at me in disbelief and confusion, and I could tell she was trying to make sense of what I had just said.
Was an excuse because I never really loved her
I had never been so sure of anything in my life, and yet here I was, telling her something that I knew would hurt her deeply.
The truth was, I had never been in love with her. We had been dating for a few months, and it had become clear to me that our relationship had no real chance at lasting.
I knew that I had to break it off, but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I thought that if I could just get her to agree to a marriage, then I could end it in a more socially acceptable way.
But I should have known better. She had been so kind to me, and I had taken advantage of her. When she finally understood that I was not proposing out of love, she was devastated.
She accused me of not loving her and told me that I didn’t deserve her. She was right.
I was a coward, and I had hurt her deeply. I wanted to apologize, but I knew it was too late. She had already made up her mind and she was gone. I never saw her again.
Looking back, I realize how foolish I was. I thought that I could get away with not committing to her, but I was wrong. I had taken advantage of her and broken her heart in the process.
Marriage is a serious commitment, and it should never be taken lightly. I can only hope that the person I hurt can forgive me, but I know that will never happen.
I should have known better, and I will regret my decision forever.