I paid a woman to spend time with me and it only made things worse
My wife and I have a completely dead bedroom. It has been over a year since we’ve had any intimacy. A few weeks ago I started giving her small kisses in an attempt to turn it around, but she’d laugh and turn away and make excuses to dodge me.
It is not an exaggeration to say that if she were to work on her anger issues, nearly every single one of our marital problems would be solved.
My wife is quick to anger and takes weeks to cool down after even a minor altercation. Two weeks ago she flipped her lid because I said, and I quote:
“I’m really sorry but can you let me brush my teeth? I’m kind of in a rush to get to work.”
She was using the sink at the time. She scoffed loudly and pushed past me. Then she picked the TV remote up from a counter and slammed it on the kitchen table.
When I asked her what the big deal was, she simply responded “What? I’m acting normal.” Stonewalled completely.
I have no friends. I have no family left, other than my wife and our children. All I do is work, go home, spend time with my children, and then go to bed. My wife has an active social life.
Over the weekend I talked with a woman online who was a paid companion. I made clear that I wanted no physical relationship.
I just wanted to have lunch with someone and have a nice chat without fear of stepping on a landmine and getting screamed at.
She was happy to meet up with me. I paid her $200 for her time, another $150 on lunch. We chatted about things, and suddenly I was taken back to when I was dating my wife. It was incredible. She promised me an hour and a half, and on the mark she said time was up and that she had to go.
On my way home I felt the worst that I ever had before. This is what my life is now: paying women to tolerate me for an hour and a half. I’ll probably do it again because it’s either this or back to high-functioning alcoholism.