I (31M) took my terminally ill friend’s virginity before she passed
Today is her one year anniversary since she passed and I can’t stop thinking about her. She was my friend for 6 years.
Her cancer came back aggressively, she told us she doesn’t want to go through chemo again so she planned to enjoy the time she had left.
Before that she was also kind of a homebody who was only close to a small group of friends which was us.
One night when we were all drinking she admitted to me she was still a virgin but she doesn’t want to lose it to just any stranger. At least somebody she trusts before she goes.
That person was me. She didn’t force me to do anything I didn’t want to, she asked but was willing to drop it and pretend it never happened if I decided no.
We decided to make it extra special. Got a nice hotel room, got those fake candles all over the room to make it more “romantic.”
Was the first time I ever slept with someone I loved but wasn’t in love with if that makes sense. It was still a very intense experience.
Not in a bad way. There was still lots of emotions. Even though she seemed so happy she got to lose her virginity to someone she trusts part of me wonders if I did take advantage. If I was wrong for saying yes.
It’s just hard because I miss her so much. But I’m still glad at least I got to give her something before she left.