Still in shock, as I’m writing this so I apologize if a lot of it doesn’t make sense. I’ve been in this relationship with a married man for two, going on three years now.
We met at work before he married his wife. We’ve always talked about getting married, having kids, etc. etc. but I never wanted any of that to happen until he left his wife.
Well, I just found out I’m pregnant.
We had slept together around September and I haven’t been able to see him since. We took all the necessary precautions like we always do. My period was late, and I started noticing some changes so I took a test. It was positive. I don’t even know what to say to him. He and his wife don’t have any kids, and they’ll be married for two years in March. I’m scared out of my mind. He has awful anxiety so I know this news is going to shake him. I’m terrified for what’s going to happen next.
It was a complete shock. I scheduled a doctor’s appointment shortly after I found out to confirm the pregnancy. I decided I’m keeping the baby. So the only thing left was to tell him.
We haven’t talked in a week when I found out. He blamed it on the fact that he is “sick” but we communicate through Whatsapp and I noticed that his Online has been going up but he’s been completely ignoring my messages. I sent him something asking him to call me when he had a chance and he did. I cried when he picked up. Maybe it’s the hormones or the fact that I’m totally terrified about going through this alone.
When I told him he was silent. He honestly didn’t say much. He asked what I wanted to do and I said I was keeping the baby, whether he liked it or not. He didn’t argue with me and that was that. He said he had to go and hung up the phone. That was three days ago.
I’m slowly accepting the fact that I will have to go through this alone. Our affair has been going on for almost three years now and this seems to have been the last straw. We haven’t talked since then. I don’t know what I expected to happen.
My mind is made up about the baby. I just hate the fact that my child may grow up thinking their father didn’t want them.