My marriage is a lie and I fell for my colleague
I’m a dentist by profession, met my hubby during school days and gotten married early due to peer pressure from family since we have been together 4ever.
It’s been almost 5years and he seems to have a lack of interest in me and we started to move towards a platonic relationship committing more for our families than ourselves.
I feel like a vase that he is proud to own like a possession and show to his friends and family how successful he is to have bagged/ tamed me. I pay for my share of everything and even paid for most of his family expenses (his dad’s medical, his mom’s household, etc).
Our lives seems to be based on a lie.
Then sometime last year I joined a new company and started hanging out more with my fellow colleague who is also married. We are both working till late and he acted very gentlemanly, sending me home, buying lunch and even took care of me when I’m not feeling well at work. I started to developed feelings for him but knowing we are both married, I can only desire for him and crave for his warmth and attention afar.
One evening when we are pouring our hearts out about our problems he took up the courage to kiss me and I took the leap of faith in starting a relationship with him knowing it is very very wrong.
He is married to a beautiful wife and three beautiful children. I love him so much and I don’t want to break up with him or break his family apart. His wife found out of our meetings and now want to divorce him suing for millions.
What has become of me?!?!?! I’m so confused as I can’t loose him and yet I can’t let my family know about this either.