It was supposed to be a night of celebration. My girlfriend and I had been together for two years and we were both ready to take the next step in our relationship.
We had talked about having relations for a while now and we both felt that the time was right.
However, my ‘kkj’ is not working
But when we began to get intimate, I noticed something was wrong. My body was not responding the way it was supposed to.
I was embarrassed, frustrated and scared. I tried to make excuses but my girlfriend could tell something was wrong.
She asked me what was wrong and I told her that I had been having problems with my penis. She was understanding and supportive, but I still felt ashamed.
I had never experienced this problem before and I was worried that I was broken. I didn’t want to hurt my girlfriend’s feelings, but I also didn’t want her to think I was lying.
Eventually, I told her the truth. My ‘kkj’ was not working and I was scared. She hugged me and told me it was okay. She said that she still wanted to be with me and that we could still be intimate in other ways.
At first, I was relieved. But as the weeks went on, I started to feel worse. I had never experienced this kind of physical problem before and I felt like I had let my girlfriend down.
I was scared that she was going to leave me because I could not give her the physical satisfaction that she wanted.
Started avoiding her
I started to avoid her, and even when we were together, I was distant. I was too embarrassed to talk about it and I was afraid that she was going to leave me.
Finally, after a few weeks of this, my girlfriend had enough. She told me that she was not going to put up with my behavior any longer.
She said that she loved me and wanted to be with me, but that she could not do it if I was going to shut her out.
So, I opened up to her. I told her about my fear and my embarrassment. I told her that I was scared she would leave me because of my inability to be physically intimate.
She reassured me that she was not going to leave me and that she still wanted to be with me despite my problem.
She told me that she loved me and that she wanted to help me get through this.
I still feel embarrassed and scared about my problem, but now I feel a bit more hopeful. We are taking things slow and exploring different ways to be intimate.
I am still scared that she will leave me, but I am also hopeful that we can make it work.