Burnt out and need a bloody vacation
Little info about myself, this month marks my 8 months since enlisting. I’m currently less than a month away from finishing my SCS course and passing out as 3rd sergeant.
As the title suggests I am so burnt out and in desperate need of time off. Dont get me wrong NS hasnt been all that bad.
Only reason I have pushed through crappy outfields, boring lessons, never-ending live firings only because of the section mates I was blessed with
But I am so burnt out. Waking up everyday without purpose and motivation knowing that I still have a year and a half left of this hell has led me to feel extremely burnt out.
I indicated interest in SCS because I want to eventually want to come back to tekong and make difference and help new recruits.
But I have realised that 3rd sergeants are given zero support and platform to do this. Thus i am beginning to lose motivation and interest.
Lately my burnout has gotten worse and evidence of this is I keep forgetting stuff at home/in bunk, messing up things I usually would never mess up.
I am clearly mentally exhausted and need a break. When I bookout, I am so exhausted I just wanna sleep and be alone.
I am so easily irritated and losing interest in things I once considered as my hobbies. I hate who I’m becoming.