Struggling to adjust to life in NS 2months after enlistment. Need advice on whether i should see the MO as doing so would most likely lead to an IMH referral, and im worried this would worsen my future job prospects.
So for additional context, I’m currently serving my NS and I am applying for medicine in uni. my problems with adjusting is due to:
- My squadmates arent very nice to me, most of them are really rude to me for no reason and one person in particular keeps using extremely personal insults towards me
- I have no one to talk to about my struggles except for the in camp counsellor; everyone else either cant relate to my situation or says that i have it better because im in SPF
- I’m feeling extremely isolated and cut off from society; i feel very out of touch with cvilian life, and not having time to spend with friends and family hasnt exactly been doing wonders for me either
- I can’t get used to the rigidity and complete inflexibility of daily life in camp because of how strictly the schedule must be followed
i feel like i haven’t been coping well with NS at all. ive transitioned from being sad all the time to feeling emotional numb all the time.
i no longer feel the joy i used to experience when i bookout, and the moment i step out of camp i only feel the dread of the upcoming book in 2 days later on Sunday.
i’ve lost interest in my hobbies and i no longer derive the same joy as i did before from engaging in them. doesnt help that i got covid too which restricts my daily activities and what foods i can enjoy currently 🙁
just needed a space to rant/seek advice. anything helps