My husband cheated on me and now I don’t want my child. Am I wrong for this?
I 27F am married to my husband 32M. We met when I was still studying and started dating. We got married around two years ago and have been talking about starting a family ever since we began dating, but had fertility and pregnancy issues involving miscarriages.
I finally got pregnant a while ago and me and him weren’t expecting me to make it past the first trimester but I did and we were overjoyed.
In the past year and a half he’s been coming home to work late or after I even fall asleep, but he told me it’s because of his upcoming possibility of a promotion (for context he works at his uncle’s startup and is getting a pretty hefty promotion on top of his already important role)
I didn’t ever really think about it since we basically told eachother everything and had free roam on our devices, but a few weeks ago I visited his work to give him a belated birthday gift but I was told he had already left hours before.
I decided to put an AirTag I owned for my AirPods in his car and it turns out he was visiting a fellow colleague.
She had known about me and him AND our pregnancy, since I had visited her house and she was invited by my husband to our baby shower.
I immediately knew that he was cheating on me and I checked his phone the next day and he had inappropriate messages with her.
I filed for divorce as fast as I could and got a divorce lawyer. When I gave him the papers and told him I had caught him he begged me to not divorce and said he didn’t care about her.
I packed a bag and slept at my friend’s home for a few nights, but I quickly realized I don’t want his child or to be stuck with joint custody.
I want a kid with someone I love and I grew to hate the baby in my belly. I told him a couple days ago that I will be putting our baby up to adoption.
He began crying and saying I don’t have to do that and we can get marriage counseling together or do split custody. Am I disgusting for doing this?