A Singaporean guy recently wrote on Facebook after he broke up with his girlfriend and felt that s*x with other girls didn’t feel the same. Even after doing it, he would still feel empty and sad.
Here is the full story.
My life changed completely when I broke up last year. My ex was this almost perfect gf who was pretty, had a nice body, loved me a lot and treated me very well. We were compatible in many areas and had talked about marriage, housing and children. She wanted me to propose to her last year when I graduate. I thought I was set for life with her. However shit happened and we broke up before that could happen. No one expected it as we were such a loving couple. I felt empty inside and was at the lowest point in my life.
Many months later when I was ready and wanted to move on, I went back to the dating scene. I learnt from my past relationship and wanted to be a better me for my future gf. However going on dates made me remember my ex more and realise she was better than other girls in many areas. Even when I was having sex with a girl I was dating, I felt sad and disappointed. Disappointed that doing it didn’t make me feel any better emotionally and I still felt empty. Sad that I’m doing it with someone else and not my ex.
Even then I still told myself that I needed to move on and not get dragged by my past. Then I met someone who clicked with me and we started dating. I put in more effort as I thought it could work between us. I didn’t feel empty anymore and she was very satisfied being with me too. But she felt that she had many flaws while I was too good for her and was just settling with her. Moreover I was hesitant to kiss her sometimes as I wasn’t that physically attracted to her. We also had different values in life and felt that it would become a big obstacle in the future so we decided to end the relationship.
My love life for the past few years have always been going smoothly, meeting the right people and everything was perfect. Now I just feel so lost…