The most valuable thing money can buy is peace of mind
I have been financially stable before. When I was younger I was able to work and didn’t have a child to raise alone. And then I went and got pregnant and the baby’s dad left.
I used to have my dad to help with things like groceries and emergencies, as I helped care for him. Two years ago he fell out of his wheelchair and died and my life has been a nightmare since.
The thing that many people who have a backup support system don’t realize is how much sleep you lose when you constantly have to worry about the little things. with the rising cost of everything, I am barely getting by.
The peace of mind that money gives is huge. I don’t even have a credit card! If something breaks, like my dishwasher or my phone, I’m completely out of luck. My kid accidentally clogged the sink – I can’t get someone to fix that until next month.
I already lost 18kg that I didn’t really need to lose, just because I couldn’t feed myself and I always feed my kid first.
I don’t sleep. I’m all my kid has and he has my time but I can’t offer him much more than that. I lay awake and worry about the things I have no other option than to neglect, like my health.
I understand that these are first world problems and I’m so grateful for what I do have but man, sometimes I want to give up.
I’m tired of cooking everything from scratch and never eating out. I feel bad that my son misses out on fun things with his friends and field trips. This isn’t the life I thought I would be living and I’m so over it