I haven’t been with anyone for over a decade.
Context
I am the mother to a beautiful, almost 14 year old girl. My last partner was her dad, who told me he wanted to break off our engagement when I was 6 months pregnant outside the hospital, where I was going to have a check-up.
It wasn’t a shock, and honestly, I wasn’t that heartbroken over it.
I fell pregnant at the end of January 2009. Our last intimate moment was somewhere in March, April, or May. I consider it April as he was at my house over the weekends that year.
When my girl was 2, I went out with a mate and her boyfriend to a club thinking I might want to get back in the game. I ended up making out with a guy she knew. That was my last kiss.
As time went on, I didn’t want to hit the club/bar scene and so the chance of meeting someone slipped away. I don’t go out often and when I do I’m invisible. So it’s fine. I’m used to it.
I don’t have urges much any more.
Okay maybe what I am going to share soon is too much info, but I do get the needs a few days after my period ends but I am able to pretty much switch it off and the feeling goes away. It is literally that easy. I think, I wish I had someone to call and then no I don’t I’m good and the feeling is gone.
I always said I was going to hire a ‘duck’ for my 10 year celibate anniversary but that was just a passing idea and I didn’t really want to do it.
The saddest thing is that my ex is going to be the last man I ever have s- with and it wasn’t even that great. So depressing.
Sorry but I had to get it off my chest. Enjoy your s- lives people before a drought occurs. Someone go and have s- for me lol.