It’s going to be dark. Please don’t hate me more than I hate myself.
I (M34) and don’t like children. Basically, I’m not more dangerous than any other person you see on the road, maybe even less. I never tell anybody about it, only my parents and one of my siblings knows. I tried to tell other people before but it did not end well.
Three years ago I married Anna (F31) whom I truly love and I’m happy with her. Since the beginning of our relationship, I made it clear that I don’t want and will never want children but I didn’t tell her the real reason, only the basics that I don’t think I’m suitable for being a father. She seemed to accept it and agreed about not having kids.
Truth is I would not be attracted to them, they would be my children after all. But I don’t want to take the risk.
Recently Anna keeps telling me that she wants a child. She says now when we have enough money we can afford it. It never was about money for me and I thought it was not for her, too. I keep telling her that I don’t want to which makes her more and more upset with me, especially since I am afraid to tell her the real reason.
Recently she went to my mother, hoping my mother would talk to me to change my mind. As I said, my mother knows the truth. She didn’t tell Anna about me and basically told her to accept my decision as I was always clear about not wanting children. It did not work, obviously, but that’s not important for the story.
My mum is mad at me and says it was worthless of me not to tell Anna about something so important about me. Anna is mad at me and my mother for my decision not to want babies.
I only wanted to have a happy marriage with the woman whom I love. I honestly thought that she does not need to know this specific part about my life.
She gave me an ultimatum, if I don’t want a child then she will cut down our S life.
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