It’s been a week and I haven’t been able to open up about my experience with another miscarriage in less than a year.
My husband and I have been trying for a baby for over 3 years. We struggled with multiple miscarriages, It’s been so overwhelming and exhausting time for me, I struggled and wanted to take a break but my husband kept pushing me to keep trying.
I got pregnant recently and last week I lost it. I started experiencing the same thing I had gone through with my previous miscarriages and I knew I was going to lose this one too.
My husband was as much devastated as I was but he started screaming at me repeatedly saying that I caused this to happen and accusing me of being neglectful of my health.
it got so overwhelming I started crying but he didn’t stop, he kept throwing accusations of me saying I ruined yet another hope for him to finally become a dad all because I started going to work after being able to manage my health.
He shut the door in my face and left the apartment for a whole day, I had to call my mom to take me to the hospital and stay with me.
He didn’t bother to even call to see how I was doing. He started avoiding me after he returned and refusing to talk about it makes me feel worse.
I feel so much anger and disappointment washing over me, It’s been a week and I haven’t slept properly since then, I can’t even touch my tummy or look at it.
It’s like all my hope is gone and all that’s left is pain and resentment. I keep asking why me, I questioned myself, my body, my health and keep feeling like my husband was justified in his reaction to an extent.