I tried to have a casual hook up months after my late partner passed away and couldn’t continue on…
I tried to have a casual hookup with an old flame because I didn’t want to sleep with a random man and I thought I was ready to get back out there.
Yeah, I was not ready.
Literally like a minute during penetration, I started full on sobbing. The guy immediately stopped and held me close.
I was just crying hysterically how much I miss my late partner, apologizing profusely for ruining the night and just couldn’t stop the tears.
I think the whole session lasted a total of five minutes. He stayed by my side until morning’s first light and left me without saying goodbye.
I’m sure he didn’t want to wake me, but it would’ve been nice for him to say goodbye to me. Maybe I’m just being sensitive.
My late partner is still the last man I’ve kissed and gotten intimate with in bed. He’s also the last man I’ve held hands with.
I couldn’t stop thinking about him during the moment. It only made him miss him more. To feel his touch, hear his voice and be against him.
I’m in therapy and thought I was ready, but I wasn’t ready. I feel like I’m going to be this way forever and never find another man who would love me just as much or better than he did.
My libido is completely obliterated and I have no desire to date anytime soon. I’m in therapy. It just feels like I’m going be this way forever. Would I find love again and be able to enjoy intercourse once more?
Everything just hurts.