So I know this is wrong on so many levels. I feel like I’m in a fight with my feelings; logic vs desire.
Over the past 5 years, me (28F) and my boss (56M) have always gotten along well. We work great together when it comes to work and have gotten to know each other more and more.
I really genuinely enjoy talking with him, we have the most natural flowing conversations and make each other laugh.
Our relationship has took a turn last month. He admitted having attraction for me and that he really likes me. I feel the same way, I look forward to seeing him and talking to him even if it’s work stuff or not.
I just crave to be around him and I think he’s so attractive for a man in his age group. He’s real fit and takes care of himself.
Some small intimacy has also happened. When no one is around, we’ll do small stuff like play with each others hands, and get close for hugs.
He did suck my finger and kiss my neck recently but nothing more has happened. He’s the VP so we are extra careful about what we do and how we act in the office when people are around.
He’s hinting that he wants to do more and that he thinks we could pull it off. I changed the subject and he hasn’t brought it up for a few weeks.
I like where we are now and not sure if I want to cross that point of no return. We also have a trip planned in a few weeks. We will be traveling together for a business trip, just us two..
Some more context on our relationship. He’s sweet and shows that he cares. He brings me flowers/fruit to my desk every single day because he knows it makes me smile when I walk in.
He’s told me he just wants to see happy when I’m trying to hide that I’m upset. He compliments me in areas that I fall short in.
We just click on a deep intelectual level and I love learning from him and his life experiences. We have this weird connection that’s more than just physical or maybe I’m just delusional