First Xmas without my mum and feeling so lonely
My mum passed away from lung cancer this past October. We knew it was coming as she decided to stop doing chemo.
I’ve been doing mostly fine since she passed in general but Christmas is more emotional than I anticipated.
My mum always went all out for the holidays and it just feels so lonely without her. Now it’s just my dad and me.
We went over to my partner’s family Xmas which was lovely but I found myself missing her so much and I cried myself to sleep.
I have loving friends etc but I feel stupid embarrassed to admit how I feel because I know I’m not the first person to experience these feelings so I feel like I should just suck it up.
I know the world is moving on but it feels like I can’t and I don’t know what to do about it.
If you read this thank you, it means a lot.
- Trust me, talk to someone about it. I had someone close to me who passed away and just talking about it to my therapist and friends made me feel better. Hope your doing well.
- There’s a reason the best Christmas songs are also very sad. We look back on our lives and think about Christmases with folks who aren’t around any longer and we miss them and we miss our youth.
- Lost my mom to bone cancer two weeks ago. Still really fresh. The holidays always sucked for me but now they suck worse. I feel you, friend.