I have been having these recurring thoughts lately, and since they are more frequent than ever, I know these are emotional baggages that I have to release before I move on.
Having just entered my 30s, sometimes I look back at the last decade and wonder how things could have been had I done them differently, especially during my uni years.
Many times, I wish I could have done way more back when I was in NUS. I felt like I mugged too much, closed myself from several opportunities, and did not spend a lot of time doing the things that I love to do (and I wish I did).
These things include but not limited to signing up for more gigs and making more music (since I have always loved music from Day 1), joining more student clubs and societies in NUS, and making more friends in and around the campus, even though those were arguably some of the most carefree times I have ever had in my life.
Being a somewhat shy individual back in the day, I did not have the self-confidence to do many of these things out of fear of what others were going to say. It was only after I graduated that I realised it was already too late.
Now that I am very confident of who I am as a person and know myself a lot better over the years, while acknowledging that it is certainly impossible to turn back time, I sometimes still wish I was a lot more outgoing and open as a person 8-12 years ago. Maybe things would have been rather different back then.
Nevertheless, thank you all if you read this till the very end.
P.S. I am good and healthy by the way! I just want to express a few regrets that I kept to myself for years, that is all.