Im not sure if its right person wrong time , or just me being blinded
Hi, Im 22(M) currently going out/dating a 26(F)
We both got out of a relationship mid this year and found each other on a night out. What seemed like infatuation turned into love and we have been meeting each other 4-5 times a week now.
When i asked her the usual what are we questions, all i got back was a “Im not looking for a relationship now” reply, which I respect as she is going through a post breakup-phase. And as a sucker for love, I stuck by her, carry her emotional baggage. We are still however dating, going out on dates, etc.
She is super good-looking and super outgoing and friendly.
Her DMs are always flooded with men older than I am, better in so many ways than I am, but for some reason she still wants to stick by my or “loves me”. Sometimes she’ll go out with her group of friends and in the process make more male friends out there.
Which inevitably makes me more and more insecure about myself. Sometimes I’ll catch her texting guys that Im not aware of and she’ll try to hide it… I don’t mention it to her because I don’t want to be intrusive and appear controlling , furthermore we’re just dating (we’re not exclusive, although I did mention to her that if I were to ever find out that she’s seeing someone else, I would step out of this whole situationship), and it makes me really uncomfortable with it.
She tries to reassure me but sometimes her actions says otherwise. And I do in fact voice out me concerns to her.
I really love her and I want to be with her.
She did mention that due to age difference and different stages of life she wouldn’t want to be in a relationship… but to be honest I see past it and of course will want to work hard for her in the future. Despite all that she still wants to go out with me.
At this point, Im not sure if Im just taken advantage of or am I just a filler for her void, or am I just blinded by love all together.
WWYD in my situation? I really love her and want to be with her, but all my insecurities and this whole different phase in life situation makes me wonder if I should hold on to this hope that she really genuinely wants to be with me or should I just let this whole thing go…