I’m extremely envious of people who have the means to travel
I live in a somewhat comfortable financial situation right now, but after the bills are paid and put money into savings for a house, I don’t have much left for things like traveling.
I have never been on a plane and I grew up in a family that could barely afford holidays.
I’m almost 40 and it’s embarrassing when I have told people how I have never been on a plane. I have relatives who are decade younger than me who have been to various countries.
I feel “behind” compared to many people in my life (both friends and relatives). I feel have nothing really to contribute when it comes to travel and culture topics.
Last night, I went over to a friend’s house to watch football and there was a group about 10 of us. One friend was there with her boyfriend and she talked about they are going on a cruise this summer.
The envy started to flare up last night and when I came home I stayed up until 2 am being very bitter about not having the extra means to travel.
I realize this is unhealthy, but it’s hard to always to be the person who is “behind in life” due to not being able to travel while also trying to save for a house and other necessities in life.
I have a lot envy towards friends and relatives who can travel and I sometimes end up having unnecessary hatred towards them.