I’m 40F, with a well paying job, single with no commitments so money was never an issue. I don’t need a man to take care of me. I have no interest in settling down and the maternal instinct just never kicked in. I’m happy being single. I’ve had a few relationships over the years but never got to the proposal stage with a guy. Sometimes I do feel lonely. I also have friends with benefits and one night stands to ease through the times when I need some comfort. I feel that since I’m single I don’t need to answer to anyone about how I live my life.
Because of my interests and lifestyle habits, most of my friends are guys and most are married. I do talk about my S life with a few of them whom I’m close to. What I cannot stand is some of these wives of my friends openly show that they don’t like me.
Since covid I also feel like all these social contacts have been conveniently cut off by some of these women. I used to be one of the few females among the guys when we hang out. I’ve met their wives in the past but somehow never seem to blend in. I find this is ridiculous. Just because I choose not to settle down and bear children, I am being outcast. Why can’t I be friends with whoever I want without being judged? I did accidentally got a little too close to one of my friends but nothing happened. Nothing started so there was nothing to end. I didn’t think it was a big deal until I notice I was excluded a few times. Why is a little mistake amplified into such a ridiculous situation?
He got to keep our group of friends while I got kicked out. I knew these people for over 10 years and 1 little mistake completely wiped away my presence in the group while he get to behave like nothing is wrong.
Try being 40 and single before you tell me it’s easy to find new friends during covid.