So my husband (M25) and I (F24) have been married for 4 months now, my husband is extremely attractive, him n his brother (M22) look almost identical except that his brother has bigger eyes and lighter skin, taller n less fat.
Recently his brother n I have been hanging out together, his brother lives with his parents n their house is like a 20 min drive from ours, I don’t work or study (I’m starting uni next year) neither does his brother, so I’m often left at home alone n his brother is bored so he comes over n we bake, cook, watch movies, build Legos, we just hang out.
Then my husband will come home n we all will eat supper or something, then his brother will go, this has been happening for like 3 weeks or so. So yesterday after his brother left, my husband sat me down n started telling me that he doesn’t like me hanging out so often with his brother.
How he feels insecure and that every1 has always liked his brother cos he was “the golden-eyed boy” of the family and his brother has always been the 1 getting more attention cos of how he looks n that he feels left out cos I hang out more with his brother etc.
I fully understand this cos I’m also some1 with very low confidence and self-esteem issues, so I told him that there’s nothing to worry about n that he is 200000× more attractive than his brother n that I am in no way attracted to his brother n that I’ll make sure to spend more time with him n give the time he deserves n that I chose him n that I married him cos I love him n there’s no place in my heart to love any1 else besides him.
We also agreed that I won’t hang out with his brother as often.
Now, I truly love my husband, but the real reason I married him was not cos I love him but cos when I was 17 I slid into his brother’s dms n he blocked me, so I vowed that if I can’t get him I’ll get his older brother.
I can’t tell him the real reason as to why I married him cos that would absolutely shatter his confidence, I undoubtedly love him n there is no part of me that is attracted to his brother in any way.
What if he found out one day?