The other day, I was talking to my boyfriend about some of the problems I was having.
I told him about how I was struggling with my job, my family, and my mental health, and I was feeling overwhelmed by all of it. I thought that he would be understanding and offer me some support, but instead he said something completely unexpected.
He said, “Just die already, then you won’t have any more problems.”
At first, I couldn’t believe he had said it. In all of our years together, he had never said anything like that before. I was so taken aback and hurt that I could hardly speak. He must have seen the look on my face, because he quickly apologized and said he didn’t mean it. But the damage was done and I knew that he really did mean it.
I was so angry and hurt that I wanted to end the relationship right then and there. But I decided to give him a chance to explain himself and try to understand why he had said something so callous and insensitive.
After I calmed down, I asked him why he had said it.
He told me that he was just frustrated with all of my problems and he felt like he was powerless to help me. He said that he had been feeling overwhelmed by my issues for a while now, and he was tired of it. He said he knew it was wrong to say something like that, but he was just so frustrated.
Now I feel even worse.