Most of my friends are having kids, and it freaks me out
I’m at an age where a lot of the people I know are starting to have kids or trying to. The majority of my close friends already have children or are trying to and I’m kind of the odd one out, but I’m also not ready – nor is my partner.
I have a good life, I really love my job, the fact I can just go do stuff and don’t feel unfulfilled in any way but I’m struggling a lot with all the changes around me.
I feel like I don’t know what to talk about anymore and get frustrated. I love my friend’s kids, don’t get me wrong!
I also just kind of miss before and get so upset that the pandemic took a lot of time away from just being able to do dumb stuff with friends.
The fact that we’re all around 30 is also just part of it, I know. It also means I’m getting a lot of questions from family and strangers about when I’ll have kids.
I’m starting to feel like maybe I don’t want them, but I really don’t know especially due to health issues.
It’s a part of life and I’m well aware, I’m also working through some stuff in therapy about my anxiety around change, my health etc, I’m also waiting for an appointment where we’re pretty sure I’m going to get an Autism diagnosis.
I guess, just like it says on the tin I wanted to get it off my chest and feel less alone.
Thanks for reading!