I (16 F) live with my sister (22 F) and both our parents. my sister is a journalist and works for a very big and important news company, and also sells clothes as a side job.
she doesn’t have a shop tho, so the selling, trying on and everything else happens in our house. a few years ago, i was diagnosed with social anxiety and social phobia, apart from some other conditions. thankfully it did improve significantly, but i still can’t deal with people coming to my house (let alone people i don’t know, that go to my bathroom and wander around my house). i go to school from 7:30 AM to 5:00 PM, and sometimes im not home until at least 8 PM, so, naturally, when i arrive im really tired and i only want to sit on the couch and watch netflix in my pajamas, but i can’t do it ’cause there’s always someone there. to make things worse, my sister only allows people to come over from 5 PM onwards, and some come as late as 11 PM.
i’ve tried to talk to my sister about this, and everytime i bring up the fact that it is simply damaging to my mental health, she laughs at me. last time this happened, i broke down crying telling her that i had a panic attack last time someone came over, and she, again, laughed at me.
Im tired of this, im tired of people coming to my home and im tired of my sister not realizing that what she’s doing is really bad for me. my mom agrees with her tho, but my dad IS against her, even though he doesn’t say anything. the only thing that can actually calm me down is drawing, but im a digital artist, and i use our family’s computer, and my sister uses the table where the computer is to put all of the clothing, so i really have no space (even if there were, i would run to my room every time someone came over). as i said in the beginning, this isn’t my sister’s main source of income. in fact, her job as a journalist is very well paid (her words), and if you really think about it, she doesn’t really need to sell clothes.
i do admit im sometimes harsh with the things i say to her about her businesses, and i do feel bad about it, but i have to constantly remind myself that im doing it purely because my mental health is deteriorating, and i really don’t want to go back to where i used to be. i’ve told her multiple times that i wished she would just stop selling clothes, and i’ve even though about just throwing all of the clothing. thankfully im not involved in any of the selling and/or dealing with the costumers, but that does make me feel like im overreacting at times. i really don’t know what to do anymore.
So, am I wrong to hope that her online business will fail?