I just joined a new company 6 mths ago and until now, I really still do enjoy my job and I will not quit or jump to another dept because I do like what I’m doing.
But the issue is I can feel myself getting very dreadful about going to work and having to start off a brand new day every morning.
I look forward to nothing more than the arrival of the weekends but once Sunday evening (at times even Sunday mornings lol) arrives, I get so irritable and borderline anxious about the fact that I didn’t even get the time to recharge my body during the weekends and it’s already Monday again the next day.
I also feel very guilty about taking MCs or ALs even though I am entitled to them so at times when I really don’t feel too well or when I want to just take AL to just rest or go on a holiday, I feel guilty doing so and until now from when I first joined, I haven’t taken a single leave.
I feel like I’m burnt out but at the same time, I feel even more guilty when I want to take leave because I know I can’t leave my work behind but part of it is just my own psychological thinking of how people would look at me if I were to take MC/leave.
I just feel like giving up at times but at the same time, I will never quit my job because 1) I still do like what I’m doing 2) I literally just joined 6 mths ago LMAO.
But everyday I feel like it’s a chore to even have to work and I really dread every single work day… SOS