Can I be an artist or illustrator even though reaching 30s soon?
I’m 29 year old guy almost 30, and I have not much working experience which I have only work on average 1-3 months each time and once for 6 months. I can’t focus or stand and sit still for long throughout the day. Always when I was working it just feels like it’s Monday, break time, off work and weekend.
I like art as it’s currently one of the only reason that I can find something “meaningful” in my life. I have depression as I was child abused by my parents and bullied at school since young although the child abuse part back then doesn’t considered as.
My friends with 16 years of friendship said that my depressions are just an excuse because there are lots of worse people out there who have even no legs or homeless people in Africa have no job and place to sta even if they want. I had ask a few people who are planning to study, are studying or graduated from an art school about some courses but they said that in one course, probably illustration I think that it’s a dog eat dog world. Even if graduate it’s also hard to secure a job being an artist or illustrator.
Recently I decided to end this long friendship even though they’re the only ones whom I know them for so long till now because it’s revolves around money that I was pressured to rent at their place as they lost Job during COVID and therefore my dad had this chance to not allow me to go back to his house but after two years, during a day after my birthday last year he wanted to borrow money from me because of his reasons I do not know but he know I have get voucher cause it’s obvious. My ex girlfriend left me for the other guy she actually know before I and her was in a relationship because of my Emotional dysregulation and that guy was studying in university and is normal.
Art is like the only thing that I can focus for now besides gaming(non realistic I know) and I don’t know what to do in my life now.
Can I still be an artist or illustrator whether here in Singapore or in other countries in future? PS: I was told by my friends that if they’re in my pov of being 30 years old with no working experience, cpf and job they will jump down as there’s no hope for future already in Singapore and will see me sell tissue at hawker centre or sleep at void deck in future. Sometime I know that reality is so harsh like people will feel example being like artist or other non realistic career be it singer, gamer, streamer, dancer, boss like having a cafe but when seeing those who are successful for the one from our country just made me feel so envious of them and disappointment in myself. I’m sorry for the advice request and extra unnecessary info.